Dear blog, i think i am in a bad shape right now. I am feeling lonely, sad and angry at the same time. I dont know wat happen to me. I just realize that i do not have a lot of frenz anymore. Even if i do, i keep chasing them away. There is not really anyone that i can turn to when i am down. There is not anyone that i can turn to when i am moody. I dont trust anyone anymore and i dont even trust myself. I wonder wat is friendship?? Can anyone tell me?? Recently i found out a few of my so call fren is just using me. I wonder if they ever treated me as their fren. One of my net frenz told me that a fren in need is a fren indeed but when i see the situation it is like only implying to themself. When they are in need then i am a fren indeed but when i am in need, there is no one to be found. Shit....
My anger is something which i cant control ever since my childhood. I thought my anger problem was over when i was doing my diploma but now it seems that is it out again. It is like a fire tiger inside of me exploding all the time. Even the slightest things make me angry. Sometimes i try to find the source of my anger. Why am i angry?? It is because i care too much?? I wonder how many frenz i had chase away with my anger. How many people hate me because of this?? How many are disappointed with wat i am??
How to cure myself of all this sickness or illness?? I think i need to come out with something. Maybe i should care lesser for everything. Maybe I should practice this attitude "Fuck it, watever la, i could not care less". Haiz, I think i deserve to be alone!! Maybe my life would be better is i was alone!! One of my fren told me that i am already so used to being alone so it make no differences if there was anyone around me or not. Maybe she is right!! I dont know. So as a warning to all those frenz out there, please stay away from me. Fren me at your own risk.
I could not sleep with all this inside of me. I want to take everything out of me. I was hoping to take it out on some people but i guess i am just a fool if i did that so i think i just write it here for bloggy. At least it did make me feel a bit better. So glad i got a blog now!! Cheerz~~
My anger is something which i cant control ever since my childhood. I thought my anger problem was over when i was doing my diploma but now it seems that is it out again. It is like a fire tiger inside of me exploding all the time. Even the slightest things make me angry. Sometimes i try to find the source of my anger. Why am i angry?? It is because i care too much?? I wonder how many frenz i had chase away with my anger. How many people hate me because of this?? How many are disappointed with wat i am??
How to cure myself of all this sickness or illness?? I think i need to come out with something. Maybe i should care lesser for everything. Maybe I should practice this attitude "Fuck it, watever la, i could not care less". Haiz, I think i deserve to be alone!! Maybe my life would be better is i was alone!! One of my fren told me that i am already so used to being alone so it make no differences if there was anyone around me or not. Maybe she is right!! I dont know. So as a warning to all those frenz out there, please stay away from me. Fren me at your own risk.
I could not sleep with all this inside of me. I want to take everything out of me. I was hoping to take it out on some people but i guess i am just a fool if i did that so i think i just write it here for bloggy. At least it did make me feel a bit better. So glad i got a blog now!! Cheerz~~
2 comments:
all d best ya.. cheer ur self up and don always make the fire tiger in ur body out la.. hahhaha
Thanks a lot bro..Appreciate ur support!! i will try to keep the tiger lock forever!! hehe
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