Lost Of Something Great!!

Dear bloggy. I got midterm tonight and i cant freaking concentrate. U know why?? Because today i just realize that maybe i have lost a great friendship. I was in the library and i totally could not concentrate. I tried sleeping it off but still no effect. I tried to play game still no effect. I tried to find company but no one was around. Damn, all i could do left is talk to u. Is this count as talking to u?? I am going Crazee. How could i talk to a freaking website?? Whatever la. Something better than nothing. Do u know how did i discover that i lost that friendship?? It is because the atmosphere today is totally different compare to last time when we talk. Now i am feeling awkward in front of u and we are totally ignoring each other. I dont even know the right words to say to u. Last time when we argue, there would always be a solution even if it was a serious matter. But now just because of something so so fucking small and everything gone. I dont even know wat i am suppose to do. I sat in the stupid library for 2 hour and i did not even look at my notes. I realize that i am lonely again that time. Someone came a while and he did cheer me up but too bad he is busy today. I felt better but when i took a look at the stupid notes. Everything went down again. All my notes was in a mess. Everything is not complete. This shows how irresponsible i am. So i decided to come home to continue my study. While walking home i remember something that my grandfather always tells me. "Why are there enemy if there are friends". Thinking hard i found that its true. If there are friends in this world then why is there enemy. Everyone should be living happily ever after. I have been living depending on people too much. Maybe its time to be independent. Time to take care of my own life instead of caring for other people. Once i heard that every people need to be selfish sometimes. Maybe i should practice some of that. Think more of myself than think of other people.

Gambateh mitchy gambateh!! U can do it! U can do it all night long and even your whole life. Screw everything that make u unhappy. Screw everything that toyed with u. Anyone that read this feel offended then come find me. We'll see what happens....